My friend just sent me the song 'Short People' by Randy Newman and my god is it good. I laughed about it for about half of this week's pod. The other half was taken up talking about my friend Steph Broadbridge's amazing show last night. Still feels like there's some uncertainty around the future at the moment, but I'm feeling better and better.
A couple weeks ago in therapy I spoke about how I often reach out to people when I'm feeling down in the hope that they'll make me feel better. While there's nothing inherently wrong with that, the thought occurred to me, why don't I learn to do that for myself, rather than needing other people to do it? Pretty cool hey? So I'm working on that lately.
Got Covid this week, been inside since Friday. Hating it. Woke up today feeling a bit better which is good, actually in a pretty good mood. Learned some stuff about blood vessels in the nose. Thought about my feelings etc. Overall though, hating it.
I've been in Sydney all weekend. On Thursday night I got lost on a hiking trail, and then spent about half an hour wandering around a golf course in the dark trying to find the way to my AirBnB. My phone was on less than 10% and fading, and I genuinely considered whether I should just sleep on the golf course. I didn't though, but the AirBnB I arrived at was awful, so I left the next morning anyway.
Last night I drove to Lorne and slept in the back of a rented car so that this morning I could wake up on the beach and go for a swim. I've been feeling shit all weekend, and about half an hour into the drive I finally figured out why! I had a spectacular long weekend full of all this amazing stuff, but it took me untangling my dumb-ass feelings to be able to step back and appreciate it! Hooray!
The Adelaide Fringe run is done, and I'm back at home in Melbourne. The show still isn't where I want it to be, although I am happy with where it's going - it's just hard to figure out what it is exactly that I'm trying to talk about! I gave it a crack here today, I dunno. I'm figuring it out slowly.
Woke up feeling heavy and in a weird mood, scrolled the internet for a while until I found some shit to get angry at, turned the mic on and away we went! Fun stuff on the Instagram this week if you wanna check out the posts I was talking about. Also here's the Birthday Drill-o-Gram vid link. Love youse all!
Thursday night a guy with a knife scared the shit out of me at the tram stop next to Adelaide Hospital. I wish this city was designed in a way that encouraged more people to walk around so it didn't feel so empty, maybe stuff like that wouldn't happen so much. Then again Aidan, it's not, and maybe you'd be happier just accepting that, rather than ranting about it every time something bad happens. This is the conversation I have with myself most days.
I'm using the camera I bought to film the podcast this week for YouTube. I'm not convinced it's a good idea, but we'll see I guess. If I can do it with a minimal amount of extra work, I guess it could be beneficial. Clearly something's got me feeling angry this week, because that's all I was on the podcast today. Feels good though. Yummy.